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Entry tags:
Recollection
Who: Abel Nightroad and Lilith Sahl
What: Regaining their Paradisa memories
Where: Floor Six
Warnings: I don't think any will apply, possible eye bleed from tl;dr? EDIT: Now there are warnings for marital nudey times.
In truth, Lilith had been in two minds about the 'travellers' that had come to Paris over Christmas. On the one hand, she had been exceptionally grateful to see Nanako again, the small girl who she knew in her heart that they had loved as much as if she had been one of their own children. However, on the other hand, she had been disquieted by the knowledge that she had forgotten someone so important to her... several someones, and that they were apparently embroiled in some world of magic and uncertainty.
It had raised all sorts of questions about her reality... her world. Was she who she believed she was? Were the feelings she had for Abel real? Was she a doctor? Was she insane and imagining all of this? She didn't want to believe that her life was a lie, it tore at her heart to even consider it. Yet to forget people and events which had been equally important was just as distressing, and she honestly didn't know which way to turn for the best.
It was harder on Abel than it had been on her, she knows her precious silly boy bottles these things up and tortures himself with them. Especially after Christmas, he had become different somehow... he could never hide from her, not properly, but she hadn't pursued what was bothering him, as she trusted him to come to her when he was ready. Patience. Though even her limitless patience was being tested to the limits here, with this confusion and mystery.
Always at the back of her mind, growing stronger for the past few days, was a niggle, a sensation that if she could just concentrate then she would understand. Memories just out of reach, hiding from her and evaporating like water under a hot lamp. It was frustrating, almost frightening, and yet it was a comfort to know she was not going through it alone. Nor was it just Abel, there seemed to be a few of their friends and neighbours who were experiencing this tug from deep inside.
Troubled beneath the serene exterior, she had not slept easily that night, as though she could hear an internal ticking countdown to... something. And that something was clear when she woke. Opening her eyes before Abel, as was usual, she found herself looking at a stone ceiling in a room that was decorated unfamiliarly... or at least, it was only unfamiliar for a moment. But then the colours and patterns took shape in her memory, this was the style of the Vatican from Abel's ti...me...
Vatican.
War.
Crusnik.
It all came tumbling back in a dizzying whirl of memories, a confused jumble that made her physically double over as though she had been punched in the gut. A life in captivity, an angry-eyed boy with a bruised heart, a smiling youth with a horrible future, a small green-eyed and bitter girl. A war, Armageddon... the pain of facing her family over a battlefield, and the peace of knowing Abel's eyes would open with her final sacrifice. She had... she... And then here, this place, a second chance. She had seen her precious Abel's pain of centuries and tried to ease it, and they had married here as well.
There are tears on her cheeks, mingled grief and happiness, as she let her life wash back over her and settle where it belonged. Reaching out a slightly trembling hand, she laid it gently on Abel's shoulder where he was still sleeping beside her and shook him. Would he remember when he woke too? Her heart ached for the pain and guilt that would no doubt take residence in his heart again, for the horrific grief and loss he would feel with recollection, and yet there were good things there too... and she would be beside him the whole time.
What: Regaining their Paradisa memories
Where: Floor Six
Warnings: I don't think any will apply, possible eye bleed from tl;dr? EDIT: Now there are warnings for marital nudey times.
In truth, Lilith had been in two minds about the 'travellers' that had come to Paris over Christmas. On the one hand, she had been exceptionally grateful to see Nanako again, the small girl who she knew in her heart that they had loved as much as if she had been one of their own children. However, on the other hand, she had been disquieted by the knowledge that she had forgotten someone so important to her... several someones, and that they were apparently embroiled in some world of magic and uncertainty.
It had raised all sorts of questions about her reality... her world. Was she who she believed she was? Were the feelings she had for Abel real? Was she a doctor? Was she insane and imagining all of this? She didn't want to believe that her life was a lie, it tore at her heart to even consider it. Yet to forget people and events which had been equally important was just as distressing, and she honestly didn't know which way to turn for the best.
It was harder on Abel than it had been on her, she knows her precious silly boy bottles these things up and tortures himself with them. Especially after Christmas, he had become different somehow... he could never hide from her, not properly, but she hadn't pursued what was bothering him, as she trusted him to come to her when he was ready. Patience. Though even her limitless patience was being tested to the limits here, with this confusion and mystery.
Always at the back of her mind, growing stronger for the past few days, was a niggle, a sensation that if she could just concentrate then she would understand. Memories just out of reach, hiding from her and evaporating like water under a hot lamp. It was frustrating, almost frightening, and yet it was a comfort to know she was not going through it alone. Nor was it just Abel, there seemed to be a few of their friends and neighbours who were experiencing this tug from deep inside.
Troubled beneath the serene exterior, she had not slept easily that night, as though she could hear an internal ticking countdown to... something. And that something was clear when she woke. Opening her eyes before Abel, as was usual, she found herself looking at a stone ceiling in a room that was decorated unfamiliarly... or at least, it was only unfamiliar for a moment. But then the colours and patterns took shape in her memory, this was the style of the Vatican from Abel's ti...me...
Vatican.
War.
Crusnik.
It all came tumbling back in a dizzying whirl of memories, a confused jumble that made her physically double over as though she had been punched in the gut. A life in captivity, an angry-eyed boy with a bruised heart, a smiling youth with a horrible future, a small green-eyed and bitter girl. A war, Armageddon... the pain of facing her family over a battlefield, and the peace of knowing Abel's eyes would open with her final sacrifice. She had... she... And then here, this place, a second chance. She had seen her precious Abel's pain of centuries and tried to ease it, and they had married here as well.
There are tears on her cheeks, mingled grief and happiness, as she let her life wash back over her and settle where it belonged. Reaching out a slightly trembling hand, she laid it gently on Abel's shoulder where he was still sleeping beside her and shook him. Would he remember when he woke too? Her heart ached for the pain and guilt that would no doubt take residence in his heart again, for the horrific grief and loss he would feel with recollection, and yet there were good things there too... and she would be beside him the whole time.
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"I have a husband with a voracious appetite to feed, I must think of my budget at all times... even for such treats as a chicken boxer dance."
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"...ah, but... there's no budget in a magic castle that grants your every wish, is there? You don't have to skimp on the nice things anymore, Lilith. You can splurge on such pleasures as chicken ducky boxer dances from handsome silver-haired men at your leisure..."
What... even is this conversation?
"Then it is even more important to be careful. For in a land where wishes come true, you must be vigilant to make sure avarice does not overcome your heart. If I step down this road, I could be lost to temptation forever."
...idek................. /squints into the sun
"A priest in service to God, and the Holy Madonna whose very existence is a thing of Saintlihood... are surely above such things as temptation, don't you think? I imagine it's quite safe to indulge your desires without the fear of losing your heart to them, Lilith. You of all people could manage it, I think. Definitely."
Oh, yes. This is a most confident nod.
i blame you
"You know as well as I do that I am no saint or Madonna, that those titles were given to me by other men does not make them so. I'm only a woman, just as you are only a man, and we are just as easily tempted as any other."
Bending over to kiss him lightly on the lips, curtain of bright red hair shielding them both from the world, she smiled to offset her mild chiding.
"I know that my heart is already weak enough to be lost to the temptation of seeing this dance."
well isn't that uncanny! because I BLAME YOU!
He opens both eyes slowly to watch her, beloved red tickling his cheek.
"Really...? Do you think you'd succumb? That's an awful lot of power to admit I might have over you... don't you think it's a little dangerous to confess that aloud?" Despite their teasing, his smile is soft and affectionate.
HOW IS THIS MY FAULT?!
Her answer was quiet, eyes full of warmth and love as she planted another kiss on his lips before straightening up again.
"Now, I believe it's about time for my dance."
everything always is. p_o
His woobie heart can only take so much; one of these days, it's going to burst from an overload of affection words like those produced. He feels a little like melting as she draws back... and almost misses her gentle tease.
"...but now we have a problem."
i can't think of a rebuke for that, dammit
"Surely my dancer has not got stage fright?"
heh heh heh :3
"You've melted me with all those moving, heartfelt declarations of love--! I don't think I could stand if I tried, nevermind dance... I suppose you'll just have to accept a rain cheque?"
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"I was promised a show, and you would not disappoint your wife, would you?"
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Yeah, he's just stalling. Why is she SERIOUSLY PURSUING THIS he is all the mortified...
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"It seems a shame not to go through with it, not now you are dressed for the occasion."
Or undressed, whichever.
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"...you're cruel, Lilith. This is just cruel. How did I get myself into this mess--?! It's like the more I try to play it off, the deeper into the hole I get!! Next thing I know, you're going to up the ante and the last vestiges of my beaten dog of a pride will be sailing into the horizon never to be seen again by mortal men..."
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"Is it cruel to want to watch my handsome and desirable husband dance?" She's still teasing, even if her fingers were petting through his hair soothingly. "I would do the same for you in a heartbeat."
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...Oh. Well then. Wait a moment.
Hold the phone, here--
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"...you would?"
Be careful how you answer this question.
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"I would not deny my husband such a simple request... even if he will not do the same for me."
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And so, Lilith used the single CRUELEST card in the history of ever in regards to a certain silver-haired priest: the guilt card.
Instantly, his face falls a bit (THIS IS GENUINE; YOU SHOULD FEEL BAD; HE DOES)... and he gives her a more tentative look. Oh. You just had to go and say it like that, didn't you? Now, he'll be punching himself in the face later if he doesn't do it because how could he not do something silly for her for the sake of his pride? How, how, would he reason that with his already impossibly guilty conscience?!
He leans back a bit from where he had been invading her personal space, and in the process is quite clearly steeling himself like a man preparing to go to war.
"...well, then. Have it your way. If it's the chicken dance you want..."
God, this is ridiculous. Don't look!! (But she kind of has to or that defeats the purpose, Abel...)
"Then... it's the chicken dance you'll get."
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Schooling her face so that she didn't laugh at his distress, she laid her hands demurely in her lap and settled to watch him with barely concealed amusement and affection.
Oh Abel, you silly boy.
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Indeed, it's going something like this in his head:
The guillotine... is over him, a dreadful, looming sign of a man's last stop on the road of life. Abel's being forced down on his knees before it, roughly; the gravel biting into bare skin a sharp but irritation that seems so tedious to pay any mind before he faces his death.
His head is forced roughly downward, throat touching the splintered wood to mark the spot of decapitation. His redheaded captor fists a handful of his hair to move him proper place, and all he can see is the bloodstained dirt. The dirt, which is what his life amounts to, in the end.
The sun is low in the sky he can no longer look upon. It matters not. He will not be granted the comforts of Heaven, above those clouds -- but instead his soul is destined to travel in the direction his eyes are cast. Down, downward... marked for death and facing it with grace as his cruel and heartless executioner stands over him and prepares the blade with expectant gold eyes.
Abel takes a breath... a slow breath. In... and then out again, eyes closing to block out his dismal last and final sights until there is nothing left but the backs of his eyelids. He will not beg for mercy. He has no last words.
All that is left... is the end.
He hears the creak of the old mechanism of death, the finality of the blade shifting above him. He feels no fear, only a grim sense of resignation... She, of all people, deserves to be the one to pull the lever and end it all. She is his final judge and deliverer to his destiny.
There is a SHINK-- blade slides down--
And thus, Abel Nightroad begins flailing in a most attractive version of the chicken dance in ducky boxers a man was ever likely to perform for his wife in the history of mankind.
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And then...
And then...
And then his eyes opened and he began to dance, skinny elbows flailing wildly like wings as he shuffled from side to side, and all hope of composure fled. Holding her sides from the agony of laughing so hard, Lilith rolled onto the bed and gasped for breath.
"No... No more, I... I cannot take such... such a... an overwhelming display of handsomeness."
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DEAD.
Oh good Lord... the things he does for love...
(Thank you, Courage.)He is so red it seems like all the blood in his body should surely be in his face, crouching down to hug his head when she finally gives it up and is satisfied, instead, to roll on the bed in a laugh-puddle. G... God. He is going to sincerely die of mortification, fisting silver hair in embarrassment oh God save his soul....
"Are you happy now?!" Comes the muffled voice from his position of woe. This is the last time he plays chicken with her.
...And that includes the chicken dancing.
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It takes a good five minutes for the laughter to taper off, leaving her chest heaving and tears in the corner of her eyes as she tilts her head to look at the ball of woe her husband had become.
"The happiest woman alive. Now don't look so despondent, you know I would sacrifice my pride in exactly the same way, with just one request from you."
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But he didn't have to say as much.
He shrinks further, groaning low and in utter anguish. HOW COULD YOU.
"But the difference... is that I would never ask such a terrible sacrifice from the woman I love with all my heart--! That simply isn't chivalrous at all..."
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1/... something idek
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1/2 SCREAM LILITH
2/2
sdkvjnfdh
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